Leaves from Deep Nausea by Ada Rook

it feels like
i'm falling

it feels like
memories, distant and sore

i need things this world can't give me
i've tried everything to stay (here)
i feel misplaced and no one can tell me why

the shadows of that world in her eyes fading
this place erases what i know (of home)

the veil that covers my brain
makes it hard to see the damage
i cause to those close to me

it feels like my body hates me
my thoughts are trying to kill me
(i can't control this feeling)
[it's just a nightmare
it's just your mind, dear]

but you sitting here beside me
makes me feel such safety

and in my dreams
that place is all i need
a world of warmth and peace
hold me down and make me bleed

it's just a nightmare
it's just your mind, dear

even though you don't exist
i wonder how you'd feel

we met when we were just children
the shadows of that world in your eyes.

• Electronic
• ambient
• concrete
• industrial
• Montreal