A Memory from Hidden Tracks by Crissy Bell

I forgot it was a memory
when you taught me that day
'bout the things you used to say
platitudes and bullshit
I could not remember
the first time we met
but no doubt we treated it
like it was no big deal
and I was daunted
haunted and filled with a calm
and I just want you to know
that when i turn around

I still wanted to be there
is there a better time to get lost at sea?
we were both hard
but still wanted to be there
A lover’s a fighter
your cigarette lighter will hold me for now
I just wanted to get this down
but i can’t hide what you’ve done to me

Everyday you walk around in their world
doing what you gotta do to get by
everyday you act like you’re not passionate
but I know you better
I know how to make you laugh or cry
I just wanna take my sweet time
while you’re open wide

I forgot it was a funeral
when you taught me that day
we both know we can’t change the past
I just want a chance to say

I still wanted to be there
is there a better time to be on my knees
we are both hard
and how I wanted to be there
a lover’s a fighter
and I feel lighter when you hold me down
I just wanted to get this down
yeah.

• DIY
• Pop
• pop vocal
• trans
• New York