Not me, from Flox.exe by DVB's Tilted Hourglass

I just- I just-
Don't
I don't get it, because-
[So then]
Because you're... expected
[Uhhhhmmm… knocked up!]
I just- I just- don't
I don't get it, because-
You're expected-
[with a Russian child…]
You're expected to write things
[...Terrible disaster...]
That sound like other people [Ouuughh]
So that you can sound like yourself
[OOOOh let's not do this]
And...
[Run away back to Connecticut
Flee flee, Huzzah!]
I just- I don't understand it, at all
I thought I had a better thing to say about this
But I don't

I just really don't
Feel like me
Because it's NOT me
It sounds like someone else
It doesn't (doesn't)
Feel like me
A lot of the material is not-
Me

I think there's more after that!
[After?
Well now I have a Master's Degree]
Yeah. Yeah!
THAT's what feels the most... natural
And I mean I know what creates those sounds now
I figured out the process that my brain goes through to find those…
Intervals and those relationships and gestures and anything like that
But
I just don't-
Feel like me
I don't know...
WHY I use them?
I just don't feel like me
I don't know-
I DON'T KNOW

I don't know who I am anymore
If they mean anything *to* me
Feel like me.
I don't know.
[...*Unnecessarily* detail oriented...]
As you can see…
[...In a way that was off-putting to the young composer]
Getting to this point
Has really just confused me more than anything
I was so much more sure about the music I was writing before…
Before I started thinking about it.
Before I started, really…
Connecting with it?

{All that stuff's easy for YOU to say!
When you change, you change for the better!
When I change, I change for the WORSE!}

{I always used to be just not good enough!
Just not good enough!
But now,
NOW
I'M NOT GOOD AT ALL}

Thank you for your generosity on behalf of…
You don't have to *thank* me
Thank you, I always reciprocate
I really love myself, also
Don't worry
HahahahaHAHAHA
That's funny, right?
At least
*You* found me entertaining

• Electronic
• chiptune
• glitch
• soundtrack
• Saratoga Springs