Chaw from Fawn / Brute by Katie Gately

Falling asleep I remember your body is
the size of my heart expanding falling of a cliff
the size of a yacht - oh yes - an expensive one
I contract then cuddle into all sorts of cotton

My feet are frozen, when I wake up there are awful smells
My body, nubs of meat and fat on bones
which move slowly as they decay outside of my door
Cake cake cake cake, cake cake cake cake!

Later, I sit still in the basement talking to the string
that hangs from the lightbulb in the corner

I walk outside and I don’t smoke a cigarette, don’t inhale and I
Scream into a city, scream into a city
Scream into a city, scream into a city

Maybe they think this is how I cry? It could be
I bend my laughter so it will be somewhat like crying

Have you noticed the crack in the ceiling which is still boring?

And I feel it move and begin to laugh very loudly
and hope people are confused

Maybe they think this is how I cry?
Maybe they think this is how I cry?

Jump to my feet, undo my belt, push my hands out like two flat signs
I’m above you looking down, I’m above you looking down
Jump to my feet, undo my belt, push my hands out like two flat signs
I’m above you looking down, I’m above you looking down

I’m above you looking down
I’m above you looking down
I’m above you -

There is a rising falling action that comes and goes in time
There is a rising falling action that comes and goes in time

When I think of your death which swoops in smoothly
I drop something fragile that belongs to you and me
When I think of your death which swoops in smoothly
I drop something valuable that belongs to me

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