Martyrdom by Nick Neutronz
ARTWORK X YAMADUBS X DEATHCRUSH
This grapples with another old voice in my head... "People will love me if I happen to die right now, then they'll see"... Its an old voice that i think many sensitive folks feel. But the underside of this voice, is in the drops. Its a rage that screams out as it dies to be loved. Often we describe martyrdom as dying for a cause for others or for ideas or religion. This is about that chamber, that mindset, where you feel people just take your existence for granted, and that they'd all wish they had more time with you once you were gone... I just want everyone who feels this to know that I've been there. I feel blessed at this time of my life to be surrounded by people I love deeply, friends and family. I didn't always feel this way, but even back then, people were trying to cheer me up, usually without much hope. I've always had this battle to fight with my mind, my self worth. I'm glad to be in a place where I can speak on this, reach for this chamber, create from it, and speak on it without fear.
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