Always Gloomy by skaluh
i want to see you
Probably this was the song I made the fastest for the album, but for 3 weeks I didn't know what arrangements to make. I felt it was a discordant and strange song. One Sunday morning, I received inspiration and finally managed to finish it.
When I composed this song, my mental state was quite bad and I reflected those emotions in the track. I composed it thinking of a farewell, as if it were the last song of Skaluh.
At the 2-minute mark, everything breaks down and it's just memories and fragments of my old self. Probably the 48 second is my favorite part of the song.
The ending is related to the "Regrets" AMV, the same beach and sensations but taken to anime.
"Regrets" describes perfectly the feeling, agony, selfishness, love, and hate. A nervous teenager discovering the world, trying to fit into a world by taking wrong paths and learning from it. All these experiences can make us mature faster and see what the world is really like, stop living in a bubble. The atmosphere is adapted to the scenario, and the lyrics give more meaning to everything.
"Wings of an angel on my back, I wander in the void, Searching for a journey, my gaze no longer speaks." When I wrote this line, I inevitably felt pain. It's a phrase with which I still identify today.
An innocent and good soul that is rebellious and wounded.
"Regrets" is the soul of the album. After finishing "Fruit Baskets PRELUDE," I started composing the album and it's inspired by it.
"Always Gloomy"
Loss, loneliness, and responsibilities.
At this critical point, I couldn't help but think of you. You were in my dreams and thoughts all the time. I got lost and dissociated from reality. I knew things couldn't go on like this. I couldn't let go of my loved ones' hands and leave everything like this. I gathered courage and got up. On a dark, rainy night, smoking a cigarette, a light shines on my face and a car passes by me. I receive divine inspiration and get to work. That's how "Always Gloomy" was born.
"You've Gone Far from My Path"
This song was pure improvisation. It truly is a beautiful song that has an answer in its last part. It was the most fun song to compose on the album.
You lie to yourself about a reality and emotional stability that isn't real. You continue to be naive and ungrateful. You want everyone's attention and validation.
You think you own the truth and idealize others.
You played with me and used me. I was just a guinea pig for you.
What I feel can't be hidden. I still love you. I need you.
"Sakura Falling from the Tree"
When I composed this song, I wanted to do something different with phonk and garage. The best part of the song is when Miku sings. I never heard anything like it honestly.
The AMV perfectly describes the emotions, an encounter, first love, leaving school, and seeing sakuras falling from the tree in autumn.
"Psychosis"
Literally, Psychosis, the road to madness.
I just wanted you to look at me. Haven't we been friends since we were little? You just lie to me and hang out with all those people I despise. Don't you realize you should only be with me? I love you and no one else will have you.
Tracklist
| 1. | I Want To See You | 4:06 |
| 2. | Regrets | 5:51 |
| 3. | Always Gloomy | 4:09 |
| 4. | You've Gone Far From My Path | 4:23 |
| 5. | Psychosis (feat. Jikuro) | 3:56 |
| 6. | Sakura | 4:15 |
| 7. | Yvmelia Punch | 2:14 |
Credits
Art by : khaon.asher khaon.carrd.co
Visual edit by : skaluh linktr.ee/skaluh
Additional elements on Psychosis by jikuro linktr.ee/jikuro
