maladaptive daydreaming by sonhos tomam conta
ever since I was a child I had this strange feeling. like I couldn't keep my mind and my body glued at the same spot, as if none of my surroundings were actually real. through my life, I tried to explain it in many ways. I kept telling myself I didn't existed, nothing was real and got to elaborate complex theories to explain my dreadful existencialism. but I never actually believed any of them, it never made sense to me.
as I got older, this feeling got way more intense. drug abuse probably didn't do me any favours. but I also got to understand it better. some films and tv shows were essential on this proccess, especially Serial Experiments Lain, Twin Peaks and other David Lynch movies. at first, I wasn't able to explain why, but I felt this deep connection with them, as if I was seeing my own life being played through other people's lens.
I remember the first time I watched Twin Peaks. I had nothing better to do at the time, so I finished the first two seasons in about three days. I watched it through the whole day, and dreamt about it when I went to sleep. looking back at that experience, it feels like it's a distant memory from another life, or maybe a dream that I had when I was a child. but at the time it felt so real.
and now I know why. I had this thought of making an album that was a catalogue of dreams for a while, but I figured I didn't have to take them from a dream journal. every single moment of my life was a dream. but you can call it what you want, a film, a tv show, maybe a sitcom, or even an album.
I know the lines between sleep and wakeness in my life are blurred. there's no need to deny that anymore. I accept it. let's say, I want to dream.
as I made this album, I felt like I was finally connected to what I really am. as if those dreamy soundscapes I was creating were finally the place where my mind could find itself at home.
hope u all like it
Tracklist
| 1. | maladaptive daydreaming | 7:44 |
| 2. | atrás das cortinas | 4:49 |
| 3. | corpos gelados, manhãs de sol | 6:42 |
| 4. | escamas do mar | 5:38 |
| 5. | onirismo e estações desbotadas | 9:06 |
| 6. | lights out | 3:42 |
| 7. | nothing's gonna hurt you anymore | 7:19 |
| 8. | full blossom of the evening | 5:05 |
| 9. | 42 wallaby way, sydney | 8:13 |
Credits
cover art by clara braz @snufffcore
acoustic guitars on "42 wallaby way, sydney" by meu quarto é vazio meuquartoevazio.bandcamp.com
obrigadinha aline, theus e matt por me aturarem e ajudarem com todos os conselhos <33
