Surgery from Shadow Puppets by Spencer LaJoye

Did a lot of yoga three years ago
Read a book for my inner untamed little girl
Found a podcast to laugh for no reason
And a doctor who knows all my demons


I’m coming back to my body
I don’t love it, yet, but dammit, I’m trying
Every mirror gets kinder to me
But I know, I know what I need


It’s not parts work, group therapy,
meditation, or reparenting
It’s surgery


One more whiskey for sleeping
We’re surviving on weak anesthesia
Put me under, I need the procedure
Something hard to make everything easier


We’ve done a lot of good work to make peace
But I know, I know what I need


It’s not patience, more family,
a vacation, a couples’ retreat
It’s surgery


Tried to be grateful, tried to be faithful
Tried to compare with a much dimmer fate
But the surgery’s set now, I wanna feel better
And I’m more myself without you


I’m coming back to my body
I don’t love it, yet, but dammit, I’m trying
I know, I know what I need
I know, I know what I need

• Folk
• folk
• indie
• pop
• singer-songwriter
• Grand Rapids