nov 13 by Taylar Elizza Beth
in the early hours of friday november 13th my car hydroplaned into a guard rail & was instantly totaled. the drivers door almost ripped completely off. the front smashed beyond recognition. and me, not one scratch to be found. walking/limping away from this accident, i knew in that moment my life would be forever changed. i survived, and i felt like i needed to understand why.
the past 5 years have been a whirlwind of unhealthy coping mechanisms, even unhealthier relationships, burning bridges & falling out with friends i imagined id grow old with. i havent always been my best self.
this song represents what it means to come
full circle. to see life in a new perspective, to do the work it takes to grow and learn and power thru even when it gets uncomfortable. its an apology to those ive hurt, while also acknowledging the love i deserved and wasn’t given.
i can say without hesitation I died that night. ive grieved who i was, sat with my trauma and now i go forward with a new sense of who I am & how I want to spend the rest of this precious & quick life. blessed to still be here. blessed to get a second chance. blessed to be chosen in this life as the talented artist i am. destined for greatness. ready to shine.
Tracklist
| 1. | nov 13 | 1:32 |
Lyrics
instant gratification vs
lifetime cultivation
hurt the ones i claimed to love
by getting faded
staying jaded
felt this deepness in my body
seasick
deeply frustrated
it goes on and on and on
and still the record keeps on playin
taste of greatness
now im feinin, feinin
killed my old self
now im grievin, grievin
searchin for the truth like a meanin
mean it?
even my demons need someone to believe in
even when our backs against the wall
we lean in
somethin bout the truth comes out
im focused on my healin
never underestimate that TEB be dealin
never ever contemplate whether or not
you need it
yeah
you doubtful, heart sour
we shout out, weed louder
came into my power
came here to devour
ill admit its true ive done some deeds
need peace of mind to gather
but leave the sequence up to me
ill shine bright when it matters
——
i dont think ill ever be real free
too many ghosts attached to me
too many lovers lost at sea
seattle got this hold on me
fate must got a call waiting
cuz why else my dreams aint fated?
why i wasnt born with peace
so i go chasing chaotic?
bridge too burnt to stand on it
life too short dont plan on it
this shit aint a subscription
it dont stop if-in you cancel it
tried to by my way inside
but yall was fucking counterfeit
cash my check im bouncin quick
turns out im the shit
go take a whiff.
Credits
produced by Still Sippin
Engineered by Seth McDonald (Ruby Room / The Forest)
