Fan Fiction from Toxpsychology by LEX the Lexicon Artist

All that wishing
Was writing fan fiction
Guess I only made it up in my head
So the one true pairing was just a blue herring
Guess it wasn’t really canon, my bad

I started writing at the age of nine, let my imagination online
Spending ages crafting narratives,
parents said I was wasting time
Could never hack it with characters, so I’d take them right from
Fandoms I inhabited, adapting them to make them mine
Based on titles that happened to stoke my fantasy
Practically wrote the annals for any random who’d flatter me
Went for broke dabbling in Pokemon, those were hardly read
In fact my actual successes were those with RPF
For those out of the loop, that means real person fiction
That means shipping existing people with no permission
Graphic depictions of sex, angst, emotional friction
Based not on facts but my own intuition
Is that fucked up? YEAH, but I found it fulfilling being
A source of joy for my readership out in the Philippines
Flash forward to the present and that’s how I fantasize
But when my universe expanded, they had it decanonized
(FUCK!)

All that wishing
Was writing fan fiction
Guess I only made it up in my head
So the one true pairing was just a blue herring
Guess it wasn’t really canon, my bad

Got me lust-struck, certain I wasn’t pining alone
All the other smut’s worse, we got an archive of our own
Now I’m on the hunt, working through every line in my phone
To find some confirmation that my hypothesis wasn’t overblown
“Could this rapport be anything short of heaven-sent?”
Friends said, “Bro, it’s not supported by evidence”
“But what about the dialogue events” “It’s nothing more than bait”
“Buying your investment, the more tension, the more you wait”
Okay, maybe, but don’t you see?
Built a delusion round this OTP
Oh woe is me, I swallow blue pills like they was OTC
Don’t need reality, I make my own TV
Hoping that senpai would notice me, that never happens
Hanging on longer than I ever imagined
This shit’s designed to blow your mind, guess that’s why they call it head cannon
Perhaps it’s time to move on to the next fandom

All that wishing
Was writing fan fiction
Guess I only made it up in my head
So the one true pairing was just a blue herring
Guess it wasn’t really canon, my bad

My bad

All that wishing
Was writing fan fiction
Guess I only made it up in my head
So the one true pairing was just a blue herring
Guess it wasn’t really canon, my bad

My bad

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